Amy,
Thanks for the question.
My understanding
is that God will forgive us and bring
us back to His grace any time we
are sincerely sorry (and ask for
it in the sacrament of Confession).
Conversely, God can not forgive us
if we are not contrite because we
don't allow Him to. Simple logic
then would see that if we are in
mortal sin and do not go to Confession,
we continue to be alienated from
God, and approaching Him in the Eucharist
would be sacrilege.
If you love the Church, that would
necessarily mean, you love her teachings
because they are promulgated by the
authority of Christ. The teaching
against contraception is a very important
truth that applies to everyone (not
only Catholics) because the use artificial
birth control violates natural law.
It is objectively an insult to the
Creator. The science of Natural Family
Planning (NFP) or periodic continence
is just as effective for married
couples as unnatural methods, but
it cooperates with God and His Will
rather than contradicting it.
For the sake of your salvation, please
reconsider going to the beautiful
sacrament of Confession. The priest
should be very happy to hear your
Confession and resolution to live
according to God's Will from now
on. It doesn't mean you will be always
be successful at it, but the sincere
resolution is an essential part of
contrition.
The priest, who stands in for Christ,
is there to assist us in reconciling
to God, not to throw us out. There is no greater feeling than
walking out of the confessional knowing
that you have been made right with
God.
Paul
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